10 june 2026, 7:33pm
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this past week i've been bored out of my mind so i resolved to end the horrendous cycle with the decision to start a new zine
i only have one zine that i made about a year ago and even though i'd been wanting to make another one since then i never really got to it
but as i was brainstorming ideas today i thought about how i wanted to make a zine about something i was passionate about, whether that be hobbies or media, or even something on the more emotional side. what i mean by that? allow me 2 elaborate..
i realised a lot of my art in my early teenage years were fed on a lot of that typical rollercoaster of emotions your average 14 15 16 year old experiences.idk. teen angst u might call it
but now that im thinking abt it i feel like it spurred me to make artwork that turned my emotions into illustrations, characters and the like. and i mean that literally. i tried creating a cast centered around emotions i felt a lot around that time. i couldn't tell you which ones exactly but i know one of them was envy. i told you it was teenage angst
anyways idk if im making sense when i say this but i was looking at my more recent character designs & illustrations i noticed that they were centered more around aesthetics or styles i liked, ultimately dropping that concept of exploring my emotions through my designs. i gravitated towards crazier and louder designs with weirder, brighter colours, essentially building a exaggerated exaggeration of my dream style.
and this isn't to say that it's a bad thing! i love lots of the designs i'd been making and am proud of the style i've developed, but i think my realisation will change the way i approach my designs now, and maybe give me more ideas on the way! i've been struggling with coming up with ideas for personal art recently, but maybe if i try to bring my own experiences into it, it might give me something to work with ^o^
speaking of, i think this'll also help me write characters better, since basing them around my experiences or feelings this way can inspire the character's personality itself
and while we're on the topic of writing,, i think this entry help explain why a lot of my creative writing pieces feature so much angst and similar strong emotions. its like sort of using emotions as creative juices if u get me lol but this might just be a me thing. it worked sooo
i thihnk it'll be interesting to see what stuff i make from now on with these things in mind. i don't think i feel as much negative emotions as i did when i was younger but im not entirely dead inside either .. i think .. yah. end of entry if anyones reading this hows ur day been !! kro signing out tt t
ok but i just realised i got completely sidetracked from brainstorming zine ideas. ahh woe is me (ah! negative emotion spotted?!)